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I think the terrible two's are getting to me. Lucas, who will be two in February, now has daily tantrums and it makes my life difficult on a daily basis. I feel sorry for all of the daycare providers out there who have to deal with this from multiple children on a daily basis as well. I cannot imagine having even two kids who throw themselves on the floor over nothing, who make me question my competence as a mother.

I even do things I always said I never would do. I have given in and let Lucas watch movies, because it it pretty much the only thing that calms him down. I can now quote Finding Nemo to the tee. I only hope that when the tantrums are over and done with, that I can banish the television from my children. I would love to give them puzzles and play dough and read books and play make believe. I am slowly limiting the number of hours in a day that I'll let him veg in front of the tv, because I know that when he does watch it, he is not learning how to communicate, and I really hope it doesn't lead to ADDD or laziness.

I feel like a bad mother sometimes, even though I know that I try to be there for my son. I always change his diapers and make sure he is washed and fed. I should read to him more, and not give in to his whining and cave whenever he throws a tantrum. Hopefully this phase will be short lived. Its days like these, I'm glad I am unable to have another baby at this point in time. I don't know if I could handle the stress and hormones and the upset child screaming. I have enough anxiety at the moment. I only hope these stresses become something better very soon.

Thank you reading. If you have any ideas for me as to what to do about limiting this time, they would be greatly appreciated, please comment below the post. It's Saturday!!