Back to the struggling though, I recently moved 400+ miles away from my hometown, to Provo, Utah. My husband and I decided to move, to Utah, because we felt drawn to it. We loved the idea of God being so prevalent here, and we wanted to raise our children in a loving atmosphere, especially seeing the current state of schools where we were living when we first got married. So I sent Josh off to get a job out in Orem, Utah back in December last year, and he was offered a job right off the bat.
I moved out to be with him once our lease was up and we had some time to save money and everything for the move to Provo. Josh worked there, as a temporary employee for not even 4 months and his company bought out another company, and despite him being promised that his job was "safe" from the layoffs, he was laid off. We struggled for about three weeks and a few more after that, just getting caught up on bills, and he found another temporary job, through his temp. agency, working at a warehouse shipping place, that was similar to his previous job. A month and a half went by and his temporary job was up, and they no longer have any more work for him to do. So, again, we struggled some more. By this time, we had trouble paying bills and everything was slowly running out. Thankfully, a month ago, Josh found a permanent job at the Provo School District, working with kids who need some extra assistance going to class and getting their work done. He loves his job, and although I am always fearful to get a phone call telling me that he is unemployed again, I am really excited for this new job. Josh has always loved working with teenagers, and he actually hopes to go on after he gets his Bachelor's degree, to get his teaching license.
On top of all of this, because we were getting caught up on bills, we were able to pay our rent, but not on time, so we have to find a new place of residence. Our kind landlords are letting us stay in the apartment (still paying rent of course) until they find new tenants to take over our lease. Needless to say, my life has been stressful for quite a bit of time. It has made me consider going back to work, and having Lucas in daycare, but I am very reluctant to do so, because I love raising my child, and I feel like it is the best thing for him, to be with me and learn what I teach him. I feel it is my calling in life, motherhood, and so I know that God will provide a way for us to stay afloat, and as I have seen so far, we are still alive, we ate dinner tonight, our power is still on, and we are warm and safe.
Yes we have no money to buy Christmas presents, or go on dates, but we have each other, and we are all alright. It is times like these that make me realize how much I am truly blessed, with a loving and supportive husband, a smart little man who grows more and more everyday, loving parents who care even if they don't always show it, awesome friends who look forward to seeing me, and my love for life. I know that my Father who is in Heaven truly looks out for me and provides a way for me to be happy. Even on the worst days, I see Him giving me little assurances that He is there for me.
I should pray more than I do. Lucas reminds me to pray before we eat meals, and I am so thankful for him. I love being a mother!
A friend of mine said this:
Courtney Huffman
She is so correct. I don't need to hide my stress, and if people want to give me crap for them, then I don't need to listen to them. I am who I am, and I am going through stuff, the last thing I need is to hide my true self. I love the person I am, and I am excited to become the person who I will be after all of this is over. Then we'll be on to another adventure. And I can guarantee that it will be difficult as well. But I know that it is worth it. I am thankful for my trials in life! They have made me who I am today.
I am not against anyone bringing me random cookies or baked goods in this time of need however haha! Thank you for reading. Its Thursday!!
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