Feeling like a tired mom...

Sometimes I have those days, or weeks where I can't seem to get out of bed more than to get up to get Lucas out of his crib and into his highchair to eat breakfast. Some days I even will get his breakfast, and make sure he has his milk and I fall asleep on the couch, at 9 in the morning. I wake up to him yelling that he is done. I don't feel like I am being a great example for my son, some days and I hate it. I feel bad because I am supposed to be taking care of myself as well as my family, and it is hard to even get dressed before noon. I make sure that I get dressed though, everyday so that I can open the blinds and see the trees outside my window.

I never claimed to be a perfect mommy, and I am not a horrible one either. I love my son and I want what's best for him. I have better days, where I will get up before Lucas, and make breakfast (eggs and toast) and I'm surprised those days, when he sleeps 'til 10, instead of the usual 6:30. I actually am able to do daily tasks like showering and loads of laundry. Sometimes I will even finish all of the dishes, and be so proud of myself.

It is these days that I long for. Laziness is addictive and easily transferred from one host to another. I wish there was a magic pill that would eradicate laziness haha. (Oh wait, maybe thats crack cocain? just kidding) No, there is no cure all that I can take to help me. I need to become more active.

I used to work out at my gym every single day. I loved the way I had energy then, and I loved the way I felt when I would exercise. Now that I am married and money is tight, I can't go to the gym. I got spoiled being able to go somewhere and get those endorphins. I have to fight for them now, I have to get up and walk around town or work out with my video game system. It is hard for me. Maybe I just need a work out buddy. Yeah! Someone who will help me to stay motivated to keep walking or someone to go to Zumba with me.

Auditions for my workout buddy / friend will be held, next Tuesday. Haha.. no. Lucas may be a good motivator.. I'll get him some little running shoes haha and a sweat suit. I can see it now. "Get up mommy! Lets go walk to the park!" I so wish that would happen.

Prayer has been huge for me lately, perhaps I will not forget to ask for help with motivation to exercise. I need it to be healthy. I need it for my son to stay healthy. I need it for my sanity.

That is all. Thank you for reading. Sorry if I bursted your thoughts that I am the perfect mommy. Well, I'm trying, and at least my son is happy :D I love his happy face! Okay, goodnight.

Oh and I got my ring today! Yay my hand is no longer going to be empty!!!