My son has been trying to do everything himself. I've gotten so used to helping him with everything that I often forget that he needs to learn how to be independent. His whole life I have changed his diapers, fed him from my breast, helped him learn to crawl and walk and smile and talk. He is getting so big it hard to believe he will be three in February next year.
Although I couldn't wait until he walked by himself, I am a bit sad to see him doing things on his own. My role as his mother is changing and it is difficult at times to adjust, but we get where we need to go.
I have been changing so much lately too. I am a full blown adult with a child and a job and bills that I do pay on my own. I loved being a stay at home mom, but working part time has been alright. It really helps that I have a family who watches my son when I work.
I am surprised how much more I am able to accomplish on my own despite the fact that I was forced to support myself and my child, with no real preparation. Life is spontaneously funny that way sometimes though. I'm glad I am able to work and be self sufficient.
Doing things on my own isn't so scary anymore. It's cool what can happen when you put your mind to work.
I am a smart, beautiful woman who cares a lot about others and about doing things the "right" way. I hope some day I can have a whole family again. Until then, I will wait patiently and continue to do it on my own. At least I have my son :)
Thank you for reading. Have a good Wednesday.
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