Out with the old, in with the new!

Change is good. 

Despite my aching for familiar, change brings new life and amazing things. This month is only half over and I already have accomplished a million things and changed more than I have in a long time. 

My little family is shrinking. My idea of a family is not however. Despite my challenges, I seem to always be able to continue to get up in the morning and take one day at a time. Surprisingly my heart isn't breaking into a million pieces. 

I am now a single mother. Yes, you just read that right. I know. I was the last person anyone would ever think this would happen to... Maybe. But alas, as life would have it, a huge fork in the road has come.

My son and I are lucky to have family around who give support to us, especially in this time of need. People seem to come out of the woodwork and remind me that they care about me. 

This is a huge step in the right direction for us. Lucas and I will make it. I started my new part time job today. I hope and pray Lucas will be alright when he is being watched by someone other than me, who he has spent his entire life with. There are lots of firsts happening now. First I love you's, first nights away from his daddy, he's potty training himself, things are changing really fast for him. 

Things will turn out amazing soon though, I can feel it. Something big is coming and I'm preparing for it. 

On a side note, I can breathe again. It has been difficult for me to breathe for a long time. Now to get past the 7 stages of grief. It'll be a little while before I am fully repaired from this upsetting and life changing event in my life. But I know I am in the refiner's fire, and soon I will be happy again. 

Thank you for being patient with me world. I am but one woman, but I may have the ability to move mountains. Let's wait and see shall we.